A Noise or Silence That Won't Go Away

Another prompt from the Pocket Muse...

"When did this start?" My worried, tired mind wondered. 
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"I can't remember," I quickly answered myself.
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Annoyed, I snuggled deeper under the covers and rolled over on my right side.
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The cold, soft pillow welcomed the right side of my face and cradled my right ear.
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"Can I really hear my heart beating in my ear or am I making this up in my head?" I silently asked myself. POW. POW. POW.
"Ugh.  I just want this noise to go away.  I need some sleep.  I need to get up in five hours, " I kept telling myself.
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"Is this how Mom knew something was wrong with her hearing?" I wondered.
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"I need to make sure I ask her," I told myself.
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"I guess the best way to describe this sound is a hammering noise, or like I can hear the blood being pushed through the blood vessels in my ear.  Either way, this is just crazy," I laughed to myself.
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"Maybe I'm just making this whole thing up... Maybe if I ignore it, it will just go away..." I tried to reason.

This sound still has not gone away.  I hear it most when my mind is not screaming one-hundred miles an hour. In the evening when I'm alone, just before I drift off to sleep, and when I first open my eyes, this is when my noise visitor likes visit the most.  I've learned that my little noise friend is tinnitus.  I've learned that I have a hearing loss in my right ear.  I know I'm my mother's daughter, because she experienced the same noise and was diagnosed with hearing loss at 31.  Three surgeries later, she wears hearing aids in both ears.   I wonder if I will have hearing aids in both ears at 60...

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